Courage

What courage i have
The result of which stings at my heart
The tears that flow burn my heart
The moment i will myself to say it
To come closer
To ask for it,
Its as if i asked for it
What u say hits me like a tsunami
Wave after wave it crushes at my heart
Chokes me till i can barely breath
And when i do breath ;
And when i do breath….
Never has rejection hurt so bad
Cursed is the heart that breds courage
That breds thee that kills it
Fear protects
Courage destroys
Blessed is he that fears for he shall not be rejected
I curse that which seeks me to be close with you
Touch you
Feel you
Smell you
I curse my weak heart that breds courage
A fool’s hope
We fight we argue but still i have hope
We shout and shut each other out
But still i bred courage
Courage to stretch out my hand and touch
Courage to lean over and ….
I still want
But can this foolish heart take another rejection
Im told to guard my heart jelously
But i have a feeling that it might be a little to late for that
For how can one guard what has already been taken.What courage i have
The result of which stings at my heart
The tears that flow burn my heart
The moment i will myself to say it
To come closer
To ask for it,
Its as if i asked for it
What u say hits me like a tsunami
Wave after wave it crushes at my heart
Chokes me till i can barely breath
And when i do breath ;
And when i do breath….
Never has rejection hurt so bad
Cursed is the heart that breds courage
That breds thee that kills it
Fear protects
Courage destroys
Blessed is he that fears for he shall not be rejected
I curse that which seeks me to be close with you
Touch you
Feel you
Smell you
I curse my weak heart that breds courage
A fool’s hope
We fight we argue but still i have hope
We shout and shut each other out
But still i bred courage
Courage to stretch out my hand and touch
Courage to lean over and ….
I still want
But can this foolish heart take another rejection
Im told to guard my heart jelously
But i have a feeling that it might be a little to late for that
For how can one guard what has already been taken.

The End

You leaving
There is so much we havent done
So much i regret
Too many arguments
I wish we argued les
Fought less
Been moody less
Too much time wasted
Night before you left my side
How glorious it was
We connect like we have never had
We talked ; or rather you talked
I listened
N you feel asleep as i was to confess
Its a shame you wont ever know
How deep you engraved yourself in my heart
Only in a drunken haze do i attempt to tell you
How much you mean to me
How much i love you
But still you told me you wont ever believe
It will always remain as something i know alone
Hours before you leave me
For good mybe
Just looking into you eyes stires longing so deep inside me
Long forgotten urges
You pull me towards you will every eye connect
But you are leaving
My heart aches at the very thought of turning in my bed in the dead of night and finding your side empty;
But you are leaving
Could it be you are cruel to make me pack your bags
Or is it mercy to pack my heart along with your jackets
No amount of begging can make you stay
All i can do is help with you bags and wave you goodbye.